Poetry from the Heart - My Past vs My Future

My Past vs My Future

I can never be the man I want to be

Because I can't let go of the man I once was

What is it going to take for me to live out my true destiny

Instead of being society's actor waiting for an applause

What I do know, is that I'm fighting a battle internally

The past versus the future, but neither one wish to withdraws

I have to decide because time is not going to wait on me

But its so much harder than choosing between straws

Never imagined I would be loved by so many

Sometimes I have to sit down and just pause

My mother raised me to practice and show humility

Yet people still find ways to love me despite my own flaws

But I've hurt a lot that have loved me and thats me speaking truthfully

Rendered pain that could equate that of ten lions paws

I guess its the Leo trait I possess deep down inside of me

But I've decided not to hurt no more: I need to stop breaking love's laws

So what will be the outcome

Guess I'll know when I overcome

Overcome what you may ask

The demons of my past that lingers in my mind

And the thoughts of my future that needs to marinate within time

That is my new task

POETIC JUSTICE - SCREENSHOT!!!!!

SCREENSHOT!!!!!

BASED ON A TRUE STORY!!!!!

He tried for months to get her attention through phone calls and texts
He couldn't figure out what direction to go, so he was stuck on what's next
He used to play the field and chased her for so long
He finally got her, then lost her, but her explanation seemed so wrong
He constantly asked to see her but her answers were pretty vague
Who would have ever thought that her heart was poisonous like a plague
He loved her dearly, because with her it was easy for him to commit
He kept her to himself, away from harm, brought on by the meddling public
His past however made it hard for her to trust him and had her mind clouded
And her actions were proof even though she said that she never doubted
She left because she felt ignored, a lack of attention and said he switched up
She still hasn't provided any proof but what's evident is that she got her priorities mixed up
All the time he was trying, he felt a little hope because feelings were much of the same
She told him she needed time to think because her heart was confused and she wanted to think with her brain
She told him she missed the convos about random things, his intelligence, his jokes, kisses, hugs, love and of course the sex
And that her thoughts of the last time they were in bed, lawd!!!! it was the best
Now this was months after, 5 months to be exact as he correctly recollect
Only to find out almost a year later, it was all lies, which left him feeling like a shipwreck
His friends knew how strong he is and kept wondering why it bothered him so hard
Only to realize that he truly cared about her and all she did was left him on the brokenhearted sad ward
She accused him, manipulated him with nothing but deceit
And now people see why his love register aka his heart is closed with no chance to print a receipt
He will move on because someone came to his rescue and took away his pain
And this person has made everything better from the moment she said his name
We live, we love, we get hurt but remember don't grudge
You must forgive even if you don't forget, and just look forward to what's next
His story has taught me a lot about life and how to live it
Its a story of betrayal, even though its painful, I'd rather receive than give it
This chapter of his life is closed because he decided to put an end to it
Now all that's left is to start a new chapter even if he has to fend for it
Moral of the story: Don't judge the package because you might miss out on the gift

POETRY FOR THE MIND!!!!!!!

FINDING LOVE!!!!!!!

In times like these finding true love seems harder than anything else

That free spirited connection that bonds two people together

Not just for the moment but for all eternity

Why is love so hard to achieve if we all claim to be good people?

We all want to love somebody but we are all stuck in our ways

We follow traditions and talk about compromise and sacrifice

But do we really and truly practice that?

Then we have standards that we are never willing to change

Out of the fear of settling or for the mere fact that we are adamant 

That someone has to love you the way they found you

Or we carry over hurt feelings from past relationships without realizing

Which in turn hinders the proper growth of a new budding endeavor

Or is it the fact that we keep traveling down the same path expecting to yield a different result

Why does finding love seems so perplex?

Oh I know, its because we have made the most important attribute to be sex

Yet still the value of sex has declined over the years due to the high casual rate

How many of us take pride in it or just FUCK everyone we date?

How many of us feel emotions when that "special" someone holds you?

Do you feel secure? Do you feel wanted? Do you feel loved?

Or you're just giving in because you doubt you'll find anything better

The double standards and fear we have about love is so intriguing

Love is to give you those fleeting moments that unlock your inner beauty 

Its suppose to withstand the tests of time like the vows say through thick and thin

So why do everybody break up so fast when their relationship is tested by the weakest wind

We've gone from putting in the necessary time to let me try something new

When most of the time, we don't even realize that the main problem is YOU

We have to get back to the core meaning of love and not focus so much on outside factors

Let us open up hearts, we might get hurt, it sounds harsh, but we gotta stop living like actors

POETRY FOR THE MIND!!!!!!!

LIFE BEGINS FROM THE SEED!!!!!

Some things we say sounds easy at times

But when we really get to the core we find it so difficult to make it happen

A lot of things are easy to make if we have the proper ingredients

But what happens when all you have is just a recipe alone

Life is like a farmers market filled with vegetables and fruits

Some are sweet, some are sour and some just not that good

But how do you know just which one to buy

When you can't taste them and you can't see whats on the inside

You can only touch and feel to see if they are hard or soft or if their even good

Looking for signs that show whether they are beat up or fresh

Well think about it, people are just like fruits and vegetables

Some are sweet, some are sour and some are just not that good

But how do we know which ones to trust

When we can only take their word and we can't see their true intentions

You are left with how they make you feel, whether hard, soft, good or bad

Leaving us searching for signs to see if this person is damaged or not

Life is unpredictable and about taking chances and calculated risks

No one is guaranteed to win, but you have to keep playing

Don't be blinded by end results that prevent you from seeing the process

Nothing in life is easy but sometimes we make things hard on ourselves

Stay fresh and ripe and be bounteous in your thinking

Then and only then you will be able to bear fruit like a well watered seed

POETRY THRU MUSIC: "SOLSTICE"

"SOLSTICE"

I bring to you, my friends, fans and supporters: poetry thru music

Her name is Camille Kaye, who brings to you her first album called “Solstice”

Hailed from my motherland, she exudes so much traits of greatness

And trust me when I tell you this, her voice will leave you speechless

Her vibe, her style, has transformed like the changing of the season

Which shows growth, maturity and being at the top of her game: her craft can never accuse her of treason

With songs like “Trouble”, “Ring di Alarm” and my favorite “I Need U”

“So Dark”, “No Way Out” and “It Ain’t Love” will surely appease you

What more can I say about this young lady, she is truly talented and amazing

Click the link, check her page, and buy the album on Itunes and thanks for supporting

I love how the songs on this album deal with life and love and how Camille Kaye delivered them. You can hear a lot of passion in her voice, especially a bit more in some of her songs which makes you feel a personal connection. Her lyrics were definitely on point and her voice was amazing; not to mention, the beats were well crafted to fit the reggae/r&b sensation vocals.  It showed her true potential as an artiste budding to breakthrough into the mainstream and her future is brighter than a moonlit sky when the sun fades into the sunset and this album surely doesn't fall short from showcasing her talent. From the opening interlude to the 1st bar, to the last note, she delivered quality vocals, dynamic lyrics and and created a resounding masterpiece......

CAMILLE KAYE - "SOLSTICE"

BUY "SOLSTICE" ON ITUNES!!!!!

POETRY #15 - I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!

I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!

I don't know what it is

Sometimes I just can't comprehend

We chase, we court, we see the signs

But when we approach they say let's just be friends

Was I wrong to think this way

Or I'm just blind to admit you led me on

Did I follow my heart or my gut

Wouldn't matter because they both said carry on

With expressing my feelings, that is, from deep down within

But it's like it was never meant to be, you made up your mind just as I was about to begin

Just let me explain, I love our convos, and our personalities coincide

You know exactly how I feel, so why can't you tell me how you feel inside

Are you scared that I just might be the one

Or the fear of your failed past relationships still linger on

I don't know what to think but ill pick up my pride and try to move on

But it's hard for me think that you thought that I only wanted to get my groove on

No love lost just a love that never made it out to blossom

So it's back to residing in single land, it's cool but it sometimes it just grows too lonesome

I JUST DON'T KNOW!!!

POETRY #14 - INTERNAL BATTLES!!!!!!!

INTERNAL BATTLES!!!!!!!

It’s always intriguing as to how your mind can work at times

You can hate something at one point and then love it at another

It makes you wonder why things are not always definite

And why outcomes change from what you envisioned

It’s even harder when you get no help from your heart as well

Because I’ve always said emotions is a hell of a thing

You can have a predetermined solution about a problem

And then that problem shows its face and your entire thought process switches

It has dawned upon me that your heart and mind control your life

Life is unpredictable and emotions cloud judgments at time

But how do we control our actions and our thought process

That’s still a task I know for me personally I’ve yet to conquer

There are people and things in my life that I love and miss

And for whatever reason, I wish I could turn back the hands of time

I say things and they say things that don’t make the situation any better

But for some reason when I’m around them, I wish it was all good

Some may say, don’t be prideful because valuable time is wasting

And at times even though you know, you wait instead of act

Reconciliation can play a number on your heart and mind

Because when each opportunity to do so is gone, you pray for more time

Internal battles of the soul can pull on your deepest heart string

Because what is lost can never be replaced

And it makes you yearn for so much more

That in the end, it leaves you hopeful for that day of warm embrace