FALL POETRY - ALTER EGO!!!!!!!

 ALTER EGO!!!!!!!

I guess it got the best of me
Guess it affected my sanity

People telling me I'm not the same
I need a moment of clarity,
Internal emotions affecting me
I suppress them because it soothes me
I don't wear my problems on my sleeve
But now people telling me I'm focused a lot more on life's wasteful vanity
So what it is that makes me be like this
To me it ease the pain and gives me bliss
Did I do something wrong again
Please tell me how I completely miss,
The one I love the most tells me to be myself again
Said she became distant because I became a different friend
Said I should fight as hard as I can and all my actions I should start mend
But why should I feel so much hurt when I can simple still pretend,
I never told her but she wasn't the first to notice that
Is it really affecting who I am, am I really being a selfish brat
Or am I doing the best for me, or am I being a scaredy cat
Do I need to let go of a part of me that has become all that I thought I've got?
Life can become strange and peculiar
That makes you change and forget who you are
But when you start to lose the ones that you love
I guess I just have to be Kwesi and leave behind my alter ego Wacky Junior